April 18 ~ 2011

I joined the gym. It was itself a big step. And in my mind it is a trial! Espen had a HORRIBLE time today so we will see how it goes for him next time. He was freaked out by not having eyes on mommy & the amount of children in there. So he absolutely was upset and didn't want to stay. I calmed him down & he stayed for a few more minutes but he was so sad & upset. It hurts me. So as long as Espen can adjust to playing with a large group of kids & strangers, I will belong & go.... if he doesn't adjust then I will not be going. Simple plan! I also did something cool today that will be a great surprise so I can't discuss it! And the worst part of my day.... when the baby sitter finally got here, Espen was so freaked out today (the gym) that he was frantic again. So I calmed him down but our "fill in sitter" was not so cuddly & soothing. So I left a crying baby with no hugs... it made me so sad. I almost didn't make it to work... We can't wait until Hannah is back!! Espen loves her & so do we.... I never worry when Hannah is here. So it was a terribly rough day for Espen. And there were no cousins or little people for him to play with today... so it is nice that he will get to see Tucker & Tyler tomorrow.. I think he will enjoy that. He loves them....