April 20 ~ 2011

Today I went to the gym & met with a trainer... haha... good for me. It was not so bad. A little sore but not so bad. The HARDEST part was leaving Espen. Seems like it is mommy today that had the problem... It is hard to leave him (even though he seemed fine today) because he is not the center of anyone's attention. Yea yea yea... I know I don't want to be that crazy mom but that is the hardest part. I don't want to disrupt the world of my beautiful little smiley 2 year old and loose his happy disposition. He is so perfect & happy & has the most beautiful smile. And I worry that he is going to be less happy if I drop him off. It is sort of irrational. I think .... when is it the best time to teach him to be without mommy & when is the best time to teach him to be with large groups of kids. And he has never been on antibiotics and will this make him sick, being with all these kids. But that is what makes me ME! So we will try it again tomorrow. I'm going to do a class (haven't done that in YEARS... I think since I left Del Rio). So it shall be an experience! And tomorrow is Gymboree day... So both of us get something tomorrow! And Hannah is coming over to play while I make some pots. So big Thursday... and I hear that the lovely weather in this state should be gray & rainy & cold... WTH... are we going to have spring? Or summer for that matter?