Working

It is an honor to be able to stay home with Espen.  I won't lie.... It is not always easy.  Somedays over the last three years I have longed to put on my designer clothes and shoes and go work a crowd over for a cause.  I have yearned to utilize my masters degree.  But ultimately I am blessed to be able to stay at home.

I have had a part time job for the last couple years that I love.  I landed in a music store and oddly I enjoy it immensely.  The quirky folks, the amazing musicians, the talented guys I work with.  There are somedays I wonder how it fits me at all.  The last couple weeks I have wondered if I should stay or go.  It not about the money or time away from my family.  I just wonder if I am where I should be. I wonder if there is a bigger picture for me that I am not seeing.  I wonder if I should be doing something else?  The store is amazing and when I am there I want to do my best & be an honest great asset to the company.  I take very seriously the opportunity to work and be responsible for the store, the business and the profits.  But maybe there should be more....

There are currently few things old rather be doing.  I don't want to be gone full time from my son.  I would love to do more pottery but I am running out of space and it is not selling very well.  Maybe some volunteer work is in order.  The holidays are quickly approaching..... Maybe an agency needs help wrapping gifts or holding babies!  Maybe I have the need to DO something for the community or for someone other than me and mine.

I am thankful for my ability to stay home.  I am glad I have watched my son grow.  And I recognize that it is a real gift to be a stay at home mom.  And I am thankful for the part time job.  It makes me happy.  Maybe there is more.... Maybe I will find it.....