Kindergarten ...
It happens to all of us. When our little ones go off to a full day of school.
And still I cried.
It is the end of being a "little boy" and the start of whole new adventures. Journeys he gets to choose and lead. Friends he can make on his own, not because mom thinks it is a good idea. A whole day of activities and learning that I do not get to be a part of but that he can make decisions on and do for him self.
It happens to every parent. This gut retching feeling of I HAVE TO LET HIM GO. We have experienced many hard moments but this one, knowing he will be at school for 6 hours all on his own, bothers me the most.
And so I am faced with a whole day to my self. What in the hell should I do with it? I ran. Ran because I needed to. Because one can not cry when running. Because I ate pie for dinner and it is summer and I will be in less clothing. Because I have the time. I ran.
But I still have the whole day ahead of me.... and lots of quiet time to fret about the day my little boy may be having. I am certain I will keep myself busy... my husband encourages pottery business to get busy with. And he is right.
But today I am sad because my baby is growing up. It happens so fast. So tiny and helpless one minute and going off to school the next. He has his own little mind and developing ideas and asking questions so he can learn. And it happens so fast. No matter how I was prepared, I wasn't ready.
Today my 5 year old went to school all day.... and while I am positive and excited for this adventure he is on, I am incredibly sad for my own sense of loss of a little boy....
And still I cried.
It is the end of being a "little boy" and the start of whole new adventures. Journeys he gets to choose and lead. Friends he can make on his own, not because mom thinks it is a good idea. A whole day of activities and learning that I do not get to be a part of but that he can make decisions on and do for him self. It happens to every parent. This gut retching feeling of I HAVE TO LET HIM GO. We have experienced many hard moments but this one, knowing he will be at school for 6 hours all on his own, bothers me the most.
And so I am faced with a whole day to my self. What in the hell should I do with it? I ran. Ran because I needed to. Because one can not cry when running. Because I ate pie for dinner and it is summer and I will be in less clothing. Because I have the time. I ran.
But I still have the whole day ahead of me.... and lots of quiet time to fret about the day my little boy may be having. I am certain I will keep myself busy... my husband encourages pottery business to get busy with. And he is right.
But today I am sad because my baby is growing up. It happens so fast. So tiny and helpless one minute and going off to school the next. He has his own little mind and developing ideas and asking questions so he can learn. And it happens so fast. No matter how I was prepared, I wasn't ready.
Today my 5 year old went to school all day.... and while I am positive and excited for this adventure he is on, I am incredibly sad for my own sense of loss of a little boy....
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