FOMO

FOMO - Fear Of Missing Out as commonly defined is the feeling of apprehension that one is either not in the know about or missing out on information, events, experiences, or life decisions that could make one's life better.

I have it. It makes my heart sad some days. It is the hardest part of schooling at home right now. We didn't move; we live in the same community. I know and see things that are happening and going on with the freshman class and my heart hurts for my child. I fear he is missing out. I don't want him to MISS HIGH SCHOOL experiences. I'm not sure the things he is missing would make is life any better. I'm not sure he would enjoy them. I fear he will one day look back and wonder why he did not do X, Y or Z and be upset for the choices/decisions we have made. 

It is all my feelings. Generally he is not aware of what is going on because to his credit he has moved forward. He is doing new things. Having new opportunities and experiences. He has made some new friends that he enjoys doing things with. That is not to say he doesn't enjoy hanging with pals from our community and the public school; he does.  He just does not spend time worrying about what he is missing. He simply is and creates moments and memories for himself.  

As his parent, I learn from him every day. Patience, grace, being in this moment and not fretting over the "what if's" and "could haves".  It might take me the next few years to figure it out... in the meantime I will keep my fears to myself and be in this place and time we create.  Maybe we aren't missing anything, maybe we are living our best authentic way.  Today he is happy, adjusted, doing great at school, has great peers on a baseball team and has dudes to ride with. He is polite, kind and well mannered. He is FUNNY. He is active in so many things and has all sorts of opportunities.