could I be cursed?
This morning I woke up much to early to the sound of a little voice saying over & over & over... "ma ma ma ma ma ma" and although I've longed to hear those words, he doesn't know it is me he calls for. As soon as I stirred 4 pets moved and suddenly NEEDED my full attention. So by 6:45am there were 5 sets of needy eyes imploring me to hop to and attend to them.
By 8 the small boy was having milk before a nap. Before he was born I had researched bottles & decided upon using BORN FREE glass bottles. Yes they are a hassle to clean (some parts). They are heavy. But they are awesome. And they make an AWESOME mess when dropped in his room full of formula grazing the side of the metal base board heat and shattering! Good grief.... glass & milk were everywhere. Not the first time this has happened to me (the other 2 times were in public) but the first time I had so many helpers trying to get some tongues, feet & hands in it! So we got it cleaned up & a new bottle made and little boy was napping by 8:20am.....
And I decided to surf the net & pay some bills (wanted to see how broke I am). And to my utter surprise my computer is freaking out.... only half of my programs will even open. I've scanned, re-started, cursed, cried and walked away. And now I'm back to try to solve the mystery.
I am beginning to wonder if I am cursed or if it is a cruel joke. Or if I am simply clumsy. Is it my vision, my perceptions, my balance. It seems impossible that one woman should have this many technological problems and other breaking problems. And yet here I am... in the middle of my foyer office wondering what the heck is wrong with my computer and how much time will I have before he wakes up because I would LOVE a shower in peace today....
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I did indeed pick up Peso's medication yesterday. I missed the USA men's hockey game but from the re-caps it was a sure win! His meds will be $12 a month for THE REST OF HIS LIFE. He will need blood work about every 60 days to monitor his thyroid. And this is not the issue with the seizure. For the seizure I am to keep a seizure journal... so we can see what patterns may exist from one to the next. So I wonder all night - should I give him this medication - 2 days ago he was just a happy 4 year old lab/shepard mix with tons of spark & energy & a little fear. I didn't know a problem existed and we lived. Selfishly I wonder how I will ever get to leave him alone to travel if I have to find someone willing to give meds as consistently as I will. Will the meds change his disposition - the vet says in 50% of dogs it does. 50%.... wow... Just like in humans. And if the meds won't prevent a seizure do I force this on my little dog.... some will say it is just cruel of me to ignore the problem now that I know of it.... others will say he is just a dog and he doesn't seem to be bothered so let him be.
One thing is for sure at this moment.... I am no longer a professional career woman.... I am a mom to an ACTIVE 9 month old with 2 old cats, a 10 year old border collie that has fallen down the stairs and a 4 year old lab with a thyroid problem. I manage a household that operates on a shoestring budget. I do it with grace & determination. I give equal parts of love & discipline to all of them. And some days the only one I want to remember is my quiet little (often forgotten) fish FRANKY. I think I could scoop Franky up in a ziplock & hit the road. We could head to the beach and be free....
And now I have to try to figure out what is wrong with the computer... and take that shower... to begin the rest of my day....
By 8 the small boy was having milk before a nap. Before he was born I had researched bottles & decided upon using BORN FREE glass bottles. Yes they are a hassle to clean (some parts). They are heavy. But they are awesome. And they make an AWESOME mess when dropped in his room full of formula grazing the side of the metal base board heat and shattering! Good grief.... glass & milk were everywhere. Not the first time this has happened to me (the other 2 times were in public) but the first time I had so many helpers trying to get some tongues, feet & hands in it! So we got it cleaned up & a new bottle made and little boy was napping by 8:20am.....
And I decided to surf the net & pay some bills (wanted to see how broke I am). And to my utter surprise my computer is freaking out.... only half of my programs will even open. I've scanned, re-started, cursed, cried and walked away. And now I'm back to try to solve the mystery.
I am beginning to wonder if I am cursed or if it is a cruel joke. Or if I am simply clumsy. Is it my vision, my perceptions, my balance. It seems impossible that one woman should have this many technological problems and other breaking problems. And yet here I am... in the middle of my foyer office wondering what the heck is wrong with my computer and how much time will I have before he wakes up because I would LOVE a shower in peace today....
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I did indeed pick up Peso's medication yesterday. I missed the USA men's hockey game but from the re-caps it was a sure win! His meds will be $12 a month for THE REST OF HIS LIFE. He will need blood work about every 60 days to monitor his thyroid. And this is not the issue with the seizure. For the seizure I am to keep a seizure journal... so we can see what patterns may exist from one to the next. So I wonder all night - should I give him this medication - 2 days ago he was just a happy 4 year old lab/shepard mix with tons of spark & energy & a little fear. I didn't know a problem existed and we lived. Selfishly I wonder how I will ever get to leave him alone to travel if I have to find someone willing to give meds as consistently as I will. Will the meds change his disposition - the vet says in 50% of dogs it does. 50%.... wow... Just like in humans. And if the meds won't prevent a seizure do I force this on my little dog.... some will say it is just cruel of me to ignore the problem now that I know of it.... others will say he is just a dog and he doesn't seem to be bothered so let him be.
One thing is for sure at this moment.... I am no longer a professional career woman.... I am a mom to an ACTIVE 9 month old with 2 old cats, a 10 year old border collie that has fallen down the stairs and a 4 year old lab with a thyroid problem. I manage a household that operates on a shoestring budget. I do it with grace & determination. I give equal parts of love & discipline to all of them. And some days the only one I want to remember is my quiet little (often forgotten) fish FRANKY. I think I could scoop Franky up in a ziplock & hit the road. We could head to the beach and be free....
And now I have to try to figure out what is wrong with the computer... and take that shower... to begin the rest of my day....
you have got to be the best mom in the entire world! i know i have chosen the perfect family for my well your son! i do not know of one person that would research bottles. not that its a bad thing though, and then after u experienced how hard they are and u still continue to use them because u know that is what is best for espen! just like u say i gave you a miracle well u also gave me a miracle knowing that i chose YOU!!!!
ReplyDeletethank you tia!
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