Video attempt
Some days are just exhausting ~ and today was one of those days. No real reason that I can pinpoint ~ just exhausting. Espen & I did some grocery shopping ~ just the mundane & regular tasks that one does. It is becoming a challenge in a clean, bare, boxed house to "feel at home". The dogs are underfoot & stressed and I believe Espen is beginning to sense change. He oddly looks at the wall where his pictures used to hang and in the stairwell where the other kids pictures hung as if something is missing. Observant little boy.
I took the time to upload a video (2 actually) to YOUTUBE. Here is one of them. I was not sure how it would work so I'm just giving it a try! If I am successful after this post, I will feel ACCOMPLISHED & upload some others on occassion!
After a teary afternoon, and a conversation with Nebraska, I think I can make it through the week. I am tired. I know I don't want to travel through this life alone. Even in the bad times & the heart ache I know at the end of the day, there is someone I can look in the eye and end my day with. I may not always like him or what I see but that is what it is about. Compromise & adjustments & sacrifice & reward from both parties. Working hard together every day through all of it. There is not a perfect relationship or a perfect person ~ there is just 2 people trying to have some fun, make a life, celebrating the small things, disagreeing and still supporting each others uniqueness & strengths. And that is what I miss right now..... so I for one will be glad when the planned separation is over. It didn't go as we planned and yet it has gone better than we hoped in some ways. So although I'm broke financially and I'm broke emotionally and I've broken plenty physically I look forward to the move & to the day to day mundaness of a 12 year marriage and to looking across the table at my husband and smiling at all we have shared and all there is to come.
I took the time to upload a video (2 actually) to YOUTUBE. Here is one of them. I was not sure how it would work so I'm just giving it a try! If I am successful after this post, I will feel ACCOMPLISHED & upload some others on occassion!
After a teary afternoon, and a conversation with Nebraska, I think I can make it through the week. I am tired. I know I don't want to travel through this life alone. Even in the bad times & the heart ache I know at the end of the day, there is someone I can look in the eye and end my day with. I may not always like him or what I see but that is what it is about. Compromise & adjustments & sacrifice & reward from both parties. Working hard together every day through all of it. There is not a perfect relationship or a perfect person ~ there is just 2 people trying to have some fun, make a life, celebrating the small things, disagreeing and still supporting each others uniqueness & strengths. And that is what I miss right now..... so I for one will be glad when the planned separation is over. It didn't go as we planned and yet it has gone better than we hoped in some ways. So although I'm broke financially and I'm broke emotionally and I've broken plenty physically I look forward to the move & to the day to day mundaness of a 12 year marriage and to looking across the table at my husband and smiling at all we have shared and all there is to come.
it is to big but SUCCESS on getting a video in here!!
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