Jan 29 ~ 2011

It doesn't seem fair that I am sitting alone when I am so excited to see Anders. It doesn't seem right that after working at my lovely job that I am the one to isolate myself from my husband. It doesn't seem fair that I cooked hambugers at the request of the majority yet I stopped at the store on my way home from an 8 hour day for special milk & ground turkey so that my boarder could eat the same yet different meal we were having. It doesn't seem fair that instead of being greatful that I had gone out of my way to make sure he was happily eating he TELLS me that I need to start buying him fat free cheese. I nearly snapped before I was eating. Then after I cleaned up the kitchen, everyone was standing there getting drinks & snacks (? - yes I live in that kind of house) and he says THANK GOD THERE IS FINALLY SKIM MILK. Why should I buy skim milk for only ONE person? And I had afterall gone out of my way to get it for him. I think a polite THANK YOU would have been much better. So I snapped & got angry with him for being 18 and limiting his diet so much. I stormed out of the kitchen then because he rolled his eyes at me.

So instead of spending time with Doug & Anders and enjoying my Saturday night before Anders family arrives, I am sitting by myself so I stop saying mean things. I don't especially want to be sitting by myself but I think I better. And that makes me incredibly sad. It is a losing situation for me. I have at this moment put myself in this situation. And it is what it is. Because at the end of the day, I will still be mad that he is an ungrateful little jerk & he will sleep soundly. UGH.
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On a happy note... I believe our great friend Eric is coming in next weekend. It will be a lovely weekend with Anders family & our friend. And hopefully I will not be working so very much so that I may enjoy everyone.