Being Mommy
Mother's Day was yesterday. It gives me reason to pause and reflect. Mostly it is a reason for me to be thankful. Nearly 3 years ago I was given a perfect gift.... It was Mother's Day 3 years ago that we met a very pregnant birth mom and nervously we all sized the other up and prayed for her decisions to be the right ones for her & her family. And every year at Mother's Day I am reminded of my blessings in having this little boy as my own. His birth mother made a hard decision and I am truly grateful. And I wish her a Happy Mother's Day. Adoption is a wonderful and frightening thing.
In my house.... being MOMMY is exciting and exhausting. It is rewarding. It makes my heart full. It is dirty. It sometimes makes you cry and sometimes makes you laugh. Being mom means you are the mender of broken things, kisser of scrapes, cleaner or gross spots, soother of upset minds, enforcer of rules, transport service, listener and talker and unconditional lover. Mommy gets to snuggle and wrestle and hug and kiss but also to discipline and mold. As a stay at home mom there are internal and financial struggles but I'm managing them. I am not joking when I say my life right now is sticky and that clean clothes are a luxury because as soon as I am dressed it seems someone touches me and they are somehow always sticky!
Being MOMMY means that I hear "Mamma you are the best" as well as "why", "I don't want to" and alot of crying, laughing and the questions never stop! It means I feel a little boy slip into bed with us fairly often because he wants to snuggle. It means I don't get to watch prime time tv shows, I eat fast, I don't exercise as often as I want to and sometimes I give up what I really want quietly without complaint so that my little boy can do or have.
Being mommy means you know when to bite your tongue and smile when someone says something crazy about your child or circumstances. It means you accept the looks of ignorant people quietly and move your son out of earshot because he hears and questions everything. It means sometimes you share your story because you are proud to and sometimes you wish people would ask instead of assume.
And yet I would change nothing. Of course a calmer child or a cleaner house or more money to do things with my family would all be great but all in all I am in a nice spot in my life...and I am thankful and blessed to be the mom to my beautiful little boy and I am glad my husband shoulders the burden of earning an income right now so that I can have this time to be a mommy.
In my house.... being MOMMY is exciting and exhausting. It is rewarding. It makes my heart full. It is dirty. It sometimes makes you cry and sometimes makes you laugh. Being mom means you are the mender of broken things, kisser of scrapes, cleaner or gross spots, soother of upset minds, enforcer of rules, transport service, listener and talker and unconditional lover. Mommy gets to snuggle and wrestle and hug and kiss but also to discipline and mold. As a stay at home mom there are internal and financial struggles but I'm managing them. I am not joking when I say my life right now is sticky and that clean clothes are a luxury because as soon as I am dressed it seems someone touches me and they are somehow always sticky! Being MOMMY means that I hear "Mamma you are the best" as well as "why", "I don't want to" and alot of crying, laughing and the questions never stop! It means I feel a little boy slip into bed with us fairly often because he wants to snuggle. It means I don't get to watch prime time tv shows, I eat fast, I don't exercise as often as I want to and sometimes I give up what I really want quietly without complaint so that my little boy can do or have.
Being mommy means you know when to bite your tongue and smile when someone says something crazy about your child or circumstances. It means you accept the looks of ignorant people quietly and move your son out of earshot because he hears and questions everything. It means sometimes you share your story because you are proud to and sometimes you wish people would ask instead of assume.
And yet I would change nothing. Of course a calmer child or a cleaner house or more money to do things with my family would all be great but all in all I am in a nice spot in my life...and I am thankful and blessed to be the mom to my beautiful little boy and I am glad my husband shoulders the burden of earning an income right now so that I can have this time to be a mommy.
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