Little Sick Child
I am laying in the bed next to a little boy who is having a terribly stuffy nose. He never complains. He didn't show any signs of slowing down or acting sick. And tonight he is so congested that he struggles to breathe. It makes me feel so bad.
And as I lay here awake next to him I think back some time when he was not yet 1 and he got sick for the first time. Doug had already moved to Omaha and I was in Illinois by myself. I remember he could not breathe from a stuffy nose and I held him upright all night so he could breathe. It seems like yesterday that he was so small that I could do that. And now he is my big boy and he is to big to hold upright.
But he is not to big to want to snuggle next to me. And to curl into my hug and mumble mommy I can't breathe. He is growing so fast. As all children do. It really is true when people tell you that they grow so fast!
So tonight I will just hold my baby. And listen to the stuffy nose and little boy snores! And I will pray for the strength to keep on going tomorrow when I am worn out and exhausted and he is ready to ROLL!
It is moments like this when I know that all the struggles to make it work to be at home are worth it. I know that I can be home tomorrow when he needs me and I won't have to answer to anyone about it. If we decide to stay in the bed in our pj's all day.... we can. And it is the life I am happy to have.
And as I lay here awake next to him I think back some time when he was not yet 1 and he got sick for the first time. Doug had already moved to Omaha and I was in Illinois by myself. I remember he could not breathe from a stuffy nose and I held him upright all night so he could breathe. It seems like yesterday that he was so small that I could do that. And now he is my big boy and he is to big to hold upright.
But he is not to big to want to snuggle next to me. And to curl into my hug and mumble mommy I can't breathe. He is growing so fast. As all children do. It really is true when people tell you that they grow so fast!
So tonight I will just hold my baby. And listen to the stuffy nose and little boy snores! And I will pray for the strength to keep on going tomorrow when I am worn out and exhausted and he is ready to ROLL!
It is moments like this when I know that all the struggles to make it work to be at home are worth it. I know that I can be home tomorrow when he needs me and I won't have to answer to anyone about it. If we decide to stay in the bed in our pj's all day.... we can. And it is the life I am happy to have.
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