last meeting
Like the end of a book, so does this chapter in my life come to a close. It is not easy finishing the last "pages"....
I have had an amazing volunteer job the last 3 years. One I sort of crafted as I wanted. It worked for me in many ways. After moving to Nebraska, I felt totally isolated and very much alone. Having Espen and our amazing life journey did not aid in making friends, but often alienated us even further. When he started school I found a niche, a role I could fill and be part of his day & the system while still being at home. Fortunately for me, it is a role doing something I am very skilled at and enjoy.
I did it for 3 years. Enjoyed most moments of it. Met ABSOLUTELY AMAZING people that sort of just accepted us as we are and did not dwell on things.
Tonight is my last PTA meeting (at this school, probably not forever). I am facing it with a brave face and some sadness. This choice to move on was planned and thought out thoroughly. And it will be a great move for Espen (I think ~ only time will tell). For me, it feels like I am forcing myself back to isolation and alienation. Like I suddenly loose my friendships because the things we have in common, work for and do I am no longer a part of ... they will move on and I will too.
These ladies I call friends I am sad to not be "working" with. Sad suddenly that my son will not grow with their children. The friendships I have built will suddenly be harder, distance will separate us, interests will change. I know we are not closing the book on our friendships, just on this role of PTA I have had.
So yes, today I end one phase and move on to the next. It takes work and enthusiasm and advocacy to be doing what one loves.... and I guess I get to start fresh and do it over. It just takes a brave face to get through the tough sense of weird loss I feel.
I have had an amazing volunteer job the last 3 years. One I sort of crafted as I wanted. It worked for me in many ways. After moving to Nebraska, I felt totally isolated and very much alone. Having Espen and our amazing life journey did not aid in making friends, but often alienated us even further. When he started school I found a niche, a role I could fill and be part of his day & the system while still being at home. Fortunately for me, it is a role doing something I am very skilled at and enjoy.
I did it for 3 years. Enjoyed most moments of it. Met ABSOLUTELY AMAZING people that sort of just accepted us as we are and did not dwell on things.
Tonight is my last PTA meeting (at this school, probably not forever). I am facing it with a brave face and some sadness. This choice to move on was planned and thought out thoroughly. And it will be a great move for Espen (I think ~ only time will tell). For me, it feels like I am forcing myself back to isolation and alienation. Like I suddenly loose my friendships because the things we have in common, work for and do I am no longer a part of ... they will move on and I will too.
These ladies I call friends I am sad to not be "working" with. Sad suddenly that my son will not grow with their children. The friendships I have built will suddenly be harder, distance will separate us, interests will change. I know we are not closing the book on our friendships, just on this role of PTA I have had.
So yes, today I end one phase and move on to the next. It takes work and enthusiasm and advocacy to be doing what one loves.... and I guess I get to start fresh and do it over. It just takes a brave face to get through the tough sense of weird loss I feel.
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